Preparing His Room & Preparing My Heart

Preparing Emsley’s room before she came was one of the greatest joys for me during the pregnancy period. Picking out items for her, from clothes, to toys and to room decor really helped me connect with her future worldly presence. Every little item I picked out for her was so exciting and made me feel elated at the thought of her pending arrival. This time however, life is busier. With having a toddler running around, combined with juggling being a working mom, I find the time I have to sit, nest and prepare for baby brother is MUCH less compared to the amount of time I had to do that when I was pregnant with Miss Lace. In a lot of ways, I have struggled with that. To me, nesting and creating my baby’s nursery is what really allowed me to feel ready and excited for Emsley’s arrival. That being said, I never did feel like having her was really going to happen. Continue reading

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Maternity Photos

I wasn’t completely sure that I wanted to take maternity photos this time around. No real reason why, other than I just hadn’t given it much thought. With Ems, I had the time to focus on these things in great detail but with baby boy, the days are flying by and I catch myself forgetting some of these little details. I am carrying baby boy very differently than I carried Ems and so capturing that alone I figured could be a nice keepsake down the road. I also personally felt as the second child in my family that the first child got a tad bit more focus than the second… not pointing any fingers at anybody specifically but I’m pretty sure it took about 4 years of nagging, starting at the age of 12 to convince someone close in my life to FINALLY finish my baby book… so I really didn’t want to do that for him. That being said, I still wasn’t entirely sure what I wanted to do photo wise until I went to book our newborn session with a local photographer Austin Kyle Photography. In speaking with her, I decided I would completely regret it if I didn’t do both a maternity and newborn session and quickly made the leap! And boy, (pun intended) am I so glad that I did!

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Navy Floral Wrap Dress

Although we had already taken some family maternity session photos I also knew that I wanted to take a few photos of just Ems and I alone so I could remember the days it was just the two of us! As the due date approaches (I am eager to not be pregnant anymore haha) but mostly I am becoming more emotional about the changes that are soon going to occur around here once baby brother arrives.

I ordered this navy rose floral wrap dress from Pink Blush Maternity knowing it would be the PERFECT choice for a photo session. The predominant shades of blue in the dress – the dark navy background and powder blue flowers I felt represented baby boy’s pending arrival, while the touch of pink flowers represented my girlie girl Ems. It seemed like a perfect blend of my babes for fall photo attire!

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Second Trimester Update

I kept meaning to write this post a few weeks back but as we all know, life is always busy with kids, but it does seem like summer makes the days go by even faster! I wrapped up my second trimester almost 6 weeks ago already! I can’t believe it. It feels like it should only have been about a week ago since my third trimester began, but since that day landed on Emsley’s 2nd birthday party, it has all been a blur. Overall, I don’t have much too much to report from the second trimester but figured I would do a quick update and comparison between baby boy’s pregnancy and Emsley’s pregnancy.

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Our Story of Miscarriage

I just want to start off by saying that I am fully aware that many people struggle with miscarriage as well as infertility. I am so incredibly grateful that I am able to conceive and on top of it all, naturally. I don’t share my story of miscarriage as a means of looking for sympathy. I share it in hopes to inspire and encourage others. When I was going through my miscarriage I looked at blog posts and Instagram pics for this same encouragement and sense of hope. It was a means of gaining understanding, not feeling alone but mostly feeling encouraged that there was a light at the end of the tunnel. Upon my searches I read many heartbreaking stories of woman who lost babies further along in their pregnancies as well as immediately after their baby’s birth. My heart literally broke for them and it still does. I can’t imagine how hard that would be. This might sound inappropriate, but if I had to have a miscarriage, I am happy that it occurred so early on in the pregnancy. Because as any woman who has been pregnant knows, each passing day, week and month you become more attached to that baby growing in you as your body begins to grow with it. The loss of a baby brought on many emotions and one of the hardest parts I found was the sense of loss related to the expectations, future plans, thoughts and daydreams, so I can’t begin to imagine the pain you would feel being further along. I hope that I don’t ever have to experience another. At the same token, I don’t want to minimize the loss that I did experience. The loss of any baby or child at any stage is awful. I can’t help but wonder what the gender was, what he or she looked like, when they would have been born, what they would have been like, etc. June 7, 2017 was our baby’s due date. And even though I am currently 22 weeks pregnant with my third baby, the ‘what would life have been like thoughts are always present.

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