Hellooooo 2018! These past couple weeks have brought back the normalcy of life again as we fall back into our more typical routines around here. Although there’s some disappointment that the Christmas season is done (mostly because I miss the decor!), there’s also a sense of calm that comes with the holidays being over. Continue reading
One of my biggest regrets during my first year as a mom with Miss Lace was not pumping enough milk in the beginning few months of her life. I didn’t have the best breastfeeding experience with her initially (see The Truth About Breastfeeding Part One and Part Two) so it definitely impacted my decision on how much I wanted to breastfeed and pump when I first started out. Since I had never breastfed before, I didn’t realize that once your body learns your baby’s needs and regulates your milk supply, you will no longer produce excess milk. During my experience with Miss Lace, my supply drastically decreased when she was about four-five months old. I was no longer able to pump off any extra milk to store for the times I wanted to pass the task off to someone else, or sneak out sans baby. Even when I skipped a feed during that time by using the little milk I did have stored up, I was no longer able to replenish it by pumping that same amount. This was both discouraging and frustrating.
This time around with baby brother, I knew I needed to be more proactive and pump extra at the beginning of my breastfeeding experience so I could have a decent supply stored up for the times I needed to pass the duty off to someone else, go out solo with Miss Lace or just take a break by escaping for awhile on my own (if I ever find the time to actually do this!). Since his birth, I have been pumping an extra feed each night after I put him down for bed. I plan to continue to do this for at least another month or so until I build up what I think is a large enough freezer supply.
Miss Lace no longer an only child? This thought was absolutely terrifying for me. How would she feel when she first saw her new sibling no longer in mommy’s belly but rather now magically in mommy’s arms, leaving much less room for her? I was very worried about this transition. I would run through this moment in the hospital in my head frequently. The moment when Ems would first meet her brother. How would she react? Would she be happy, excited, upset, confused, or sad? I prepped myself and her for this moment as best I could, both mentally and physically. Knowing that she would need to feel important in her new role as a big sister, I collected a few items that I knew would make her feel special. I gave some of them to her at home and brought others along to the hospital.
Preparing Emsley’s room before she came was one of the greatest joys for me during the pregnancy period. Picking out items for her, from clothes, to toys and to room decor really helped me connect with her future worldly presence. Every little item I picked out for her was so exciting and made me feel elated at the thought of her pending arrival. This time however, life is busier. With having a toddler running around, combined with juggling being a working mom, I find the time I have to sit, nest and prepare for baby brother is MUCH less compared to the amount of time I had to do that when I was pregnant with Miss Lace. In a lot of ways, I have struggled with that. To me, nesting and creating my baby’s nursery is what really allowed me to feel ready and excited for Emsley’s arrival. That being said, I never did feel like having her was really going to happen. Continue reading
I wasn’t completely sure that I wanted to take maternity photos this time around. No real reason why, other than I just hadn’t given it much thought. With Ems, I had the time to focus on these things in great detail but with baby boy, the days are flying by and I catch myself forgetting some of these little details. I am carrying baby boy very differently than I carried Ems and so capturing that alone I figured could be a nice keepsake down the road. I also personally felt as the second child in my family that the first child got a tad bit more focus than the second… not pointing any fingers at anybody specifically but I’m pretty sure it took about 4 years of nagging, starting at the age of 12 to convince someone close in my life to FINALLY finish my baby book… so I really didn’t want to do that for him. That being said, I still wasn’t entirely sure what I wanted to do photo wise until I went to book our newborn session with a local photographer Austin Kyle Photography. In speaking with her, I decided I would completely regret it if I didn’t do both a maternity and newborn session and quickly made the leap! And boy, (pun intended) am I so glad that I did!
Although we had already taken some family maternity session photos I also knew that I wanted to take a few photos of just Ems and I alone so I could remember the days it was just the two of us! As the due date approaches (I am eager to not be pregnant anymore haha) but mostly I am becoming more emotional about the changes that are soon going to occur around here once baby brother arrives.
I ordered this navy rose floral wrap dress from Pink Blush Maternity knowing it would be the PERFECT choice for a photo session. The predominant shades of blue in the dress – the dark navy background and powder blue flowers I felt represented baby boy’s pending arrival, while the touch of pink flowers represented my girlie girl Ems. It seemed like a perfect blend of my babes for fall photo attire!
If you follow me on Instagram, you’ll know that we’ve been tackling potty training over here…each day at a time.. One, of the few downsides to potty training is that it has led to many days of isolation, being confined within our home, forcing this momma to get creative. On the not so great days outside, the go to recently has been having indoor picnics in our living room on a blanket, but since the weather turned warm again, getting outside became a must! I decided to create a little outdoor picnic in our backyard for Miss Lace to find when she woke up from a nap last week. She absolutely LOVED the concept of it and has been asking for more picnics since! When Love Child Organics offered to send me some samples of their toddler snack products, I instantly agreed! We have been a Love Child fan since Ems started solids, buying their purees and toodle O’s. More recently, Ems is loving their lil’ shake drink in the chocolate flavour which is packed with protein. As a parent, I love the fact that Love Child uses only 100% organic ingredients, with no added sugars. Oh, and the fact that they are Canadian based doesn’t hurt either!
I wanted to share another great dress find from Pink Blush Maternity! This white scalloped dress was the perfect choice for Miss Lace’s 2nd birthday party. I am completely on board with the mentality of the little white dress being the new little black dress these days and like any woman I feel like I can’t have enough of them! Continue reading
Summer means wedding season and for me the current challenge of finding a maternity dress that I truly feel great in. During my last pregnancy I bought a few items that were very much “classic maternity” that I never really loved. This pregnancy I vowed that I wouldn’t settle on local mall items and instead decided to do a little online shopping. Continue reading
I just want to start off by saying that I am fully aware that many people struggle with miscarriage as well as infertility. I am so incredibly grateful that I am able to conceive and on top of it all, naturally. I don’t share my story of miscarriage as a means of looking for sympathy. I share it in hopes to inspire and encourage others. When I was going through my miscarriage I looked at blog posts and Instagram pics for this same encouragement and sense of hope. It was a means of gaining understanding, not feeling alone but mostly feeling encouraged that there was a light at the end of the tunnel. Upon my searches I read many heartbreaking stories of woman who lost babies further along in their pregnancies as well as immediately after their baby’s birth. My heart literally broke for them and it still does. I can’t imagine how hard that would be. This might sound inappropriate, but if I had to have a miscarriage, I am happy that it occurred so early on in the pregnancy. Because as any woman who has been pregnant knows, each passing day, week and month you become more attached to that baby growing in you as your body begins to grow with it. The loss of a baby brought on many emotions and one of the hardest parts I found was the sense of loss related to the expectations, future plans, thoughts and daydreams, so I can’t begin to imagine the pain you would feel being further along. I hope that I don’t ever have to experience another. At the same token, I don’t want to minimize the loss that I did experience. The loss of any baby or child at any stage is awful. I can’t help but wonder what the gender was, what he or she looked like, when they would have been born, what they would have been like, etc. June 7, 2017 was our baby’s due date. And even though I am currently 22 weeks pregnant with my third baby, the ‘what would life have been like thoughts are always present.